1. |
Reach
07:29
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Enter the hive of the system, the sting operation way
My wish is loosely folded
This is the mind of a small man who’s tired of day-to-day
My wish is loosely folded
Undermined and undecided and voiceless
‘Cause I don’t really care for crowds
But here I am, standing with the sun in my eyes,
Pondering why I played this out
With visitation hours so slim,
Here you are, hoping to catch a glimpse of some talent
Maybe your boy isn’t obsolete after all…
At any second Ima’ skyscrape them’ clouds!
Can you imagine making contact?
I’ve never felt so close…
So, I reach
I missed it—eagle eyes, out
Full swing—came and went down
I missed it—eagle eyes, out
For a sec, had the whole world in my pocket
Then, I dropped it
There goes the win
Who woulda’ thought this?
Oh, my god...
The bliss in my once ignorant mind subsides
Do I change, or can trash be divine?
Like a trojan horse in my own fortress,
I’m worthless
There goes the win and your support, man
Oh, my god…
The bliss in my once ignorant mind, it subsides
With visitation hours so slim,
Here you are, hoping to catch a glimpse of some talent
Maybe your boy isn’t obsolete after all…
But what do you say when crushed dreams are your fault?
Do you tell them, “That’s just the way it is”?
I missed it—eagle eyes, out
Full swing—came and went down
I missed it—eagle eyes, out
These crushed dreams are my fault,
But what do you say?
These crushed dreams are my fault,
And I will never live it down
There’s no room for the ghosts inside me,
But I just can’t make them leave
And I’m afraid of the mess they create,
Cause’ it’s evolving in spite of my efforts to quench its thirst
I should jump off the roof, head first
My wish is loosely folded
I’m pondering why I would play this one out
I missed it—eagle eyes, out
Full swing—came and went down
I missed it—eagle eyes, out
People will always remember I could not fly
But what do you say when crushed dreams are your fault?
No, I could not fly
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2. |
Soot-locker
04:33
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I’ve longed to see what it’s like to live amid the clouds
Or even what it’s like to be loved—I’m lonely
No one has to know
I might just call it quits before I face the rain
-Quitting’s all I’ve ever done,
But where do I go from there?
Pick a direction and walk until my feet turn black?
‘Til my skin gets raw?
Where do I go from there?
Lie on my back in the sun until I phase away?
Would you build a shrine around the imprint in the grass?
I’ve been saving for the day
When I’m gonna’ rule the world
I’m being paid for all the pain that you cause
I’m just another ordinary, average-type of person,
But I’m holding on
You spent your whole life pledging your allegiance
For a chance to join the Holy Soldiers
I spent my whole life whining and crying
I abandoned the motivation that once lit the way to that same rank
Now, my time’s spent lying in the grass
I’ve been saving for the day
When I’m gonna’ rule the world
I’m being paid for all the pain that you cause
Don’t you see it?
You don’t have the restraint
What’s the point if I’m not good enough
When I’m not holding back?
I’ll never ever be the best
I’m choking on the dirt of all the times you broke me
Something tells me things won’t change
I know this
I can’t step up to the plate to swing fast
I know that my best won’t prove you all wrong
Or show you I’m not worthless after all
I’ve been saving for the day
When I’m gonna’ rule the world
I’m being paid for all the pain that you cause
I’m just another ordinary, average-type of person,
But I’m holding on
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3. |
The Good Team
05:33
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Lesson one:
There are cards that are never worth playing
They exist to make space and confuse everyone
Lesson two:
If you’re ever gonna’ win, you can’t just play not to lose
When everybody else is going for the gold,
You’re afraid you might fail
-Afraid to reach out
But if you wanna’ be a big man,
You’ve got to concentrate and never give in
Why are you here if not to celebrate?
Go catch your moment
I wanna’ see just who you can be
What will you do to learn the lesson?
Give everything, the movement brings change
What will you do to learn the lesson?
Put every fiber of your being on a pedestal,
And don’t let it down,
Just watch it evolve
I wanna’ see just who you can be
What will it take to make it: lesson learned?
Pick up the bat and take a swing
What are you waiting for?
You’ve got to make your own value
Don’t even think this is all you’ll ever be
The war has just begun!
You’ve got to make your own value
I wanna’ see just who you can be
What will you do to learn the lesson?
Give everything, the movement brings change
What will you do to learn the lesson?
Put every fiber of your being on a pedestal,
And don’t let it down,
Just watch it evolve
I wanna’ see just who you can be
What will it take to make it: lesson learned?
So, if you wanna’ be a big man,
You’ve got to concentrate and never give in
Why are you here if not to celebrate?
Go catch your moment
Don’t justify it with logic and reason
Separate thoughts are running
This is elevation
This is how you seize the day!
Go catch your moment!
This is how you seize the day!
I wanna’ see just who you can be
What will you do to learn the lesson?
Give everything, the movement brings change
What will you do to learn the lesson?
Put every fiber of your being on a pedestal,
And don’t let it down,
Just watch it evolve
I wanna’ see just who you can be
What will it take to make it: lesson learned?
Let this be your lesson learned
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4. |
Thicker
07:38
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Twisting clouds rotating overhead like alligators rolling in a lake
Another moss-step forward as I’m treading toward my fate
On the living carpet scattered ‘round the ground
We don’t believe our eyes
Even when what they see is elevated
-A 4k resolution on the screen, which we call life
I think sideways, so all my calls hit like tidal waves,
And that’s the neat thing!
There’s no absolution on this plane, which we call life
And that’s the neat thing!
Since we’re operating above two hundred and fifty-six color,
That puts me twenty years obsolete
O’ it was just another routine complication
On the screen that we call life
Yeah, maybe that’s a flawed interpretation,
But I’m done picking sides
A wind-flecked well in the clearing up ahead
It’s ominous, so it’s always wanting peace
I’ll take a dust-step forward
And be the moth without its wings
Its life could change with the toss of a single coin
Couldn’t believe my eyes
Surely, what I just saw was a work of fiction
-The 4k resolution on the screen, must have been a lie
I wished either way and let it fall like a tidal wave,
And that’s the neat thing!
If it was truly fiction, what happened next would’ve been a lie
And that’s the neat thing!
I’m still operating at two hundred and fifty-six color,
But I don’t feel so obsolete
O’ it was just another routine complication
On the screen that we call life
Yeah, maybe that’s a flawed interpretation,
But I’m done picking sides...
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5. |
From The Night
05:20
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Am I a seed today?
My stomach hurts
As I wisp through the tarnished, worn-out beliefs
-The things I hid deep in the shadows
A pile of dust and decay,
The end of a friendship,
A race with no value
I can’t believe that year after year escaped
I like to lie in pain
The sting pulls me the other way
Welcomes the chance to feel what my hindsight illuminates
I want to be the light
I want to shine where eyes can’t see
I’d like to break the dawn
From the night, I could liberate
It seems I’m getting worse today…
My body aches
As I squeeze through these fractured, shabby beliefs
-The fiends I just can’t escape
I’d like to lie in wait
One day, you’ll walk the other way,
And I’ll steal the chance to prove I can do better
God knows this suffering is surely more important
Than just wading in the shallows
When the lifeboats come in, o’ I’ll dive!
If I drown, then I drown,
But at least I’ll know I tried
I want to be the light
I want to shine where eyes can’t see
I’d like to break the dawn
From the night, I could liberate
I want to bring the fight
Evil is gray from far away
I’d like to face the dawn
From the night I could liberate us all
‘Til I go blind!
I’ll hold steadfast to false hope
‘Cause I’m tired of defeat
I’m so sick of being nothing
-Of losing myself—slack in the tide
What would it take to just move on?
To let me reach out?
I want to be the light
I want to shine where eyes can’t see
I’d like to break the dawn
From the night, I could liberate
I want to bring the fight
Evil is gray from far away
I’d like to face the dawn
From the night I could liberate us all
I want to be the light of the dawn
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6. |
Thinner
05:09
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In fables, they come from the cold
-The young and the old travel hills of gold
To a place where your spirit quivers
Because the people in the street like to feed on your darkest wish
Still, they come and they come,
And they slowly all lose their emotion
Yes, I got stuck there once ‘cause the car wouldn’t start for me
My obsession, it dominated the show
Because the car wouldn’t start
I got out, and I closed the car door
Ignoring the vultures as I entered a moss-covered store
There was a man behind the counter with a melon-shaped head,
And his arms reached the floor
He asked me all about my wish
He asked me all about my dreams
And I said, “There’s one thing for sure
I know the car doesn’t start for me”
I felt drained of emotion as he locked the front door
To carry out some atrocious, empty crime
How dare he!
Carried ‘em out like a vagabond—oh!
And when my car started up, I destroyed the key
I’m left field now
How I’m confused now!
Carried ‘em out like a vagabond—oh!
But when my car started up, I destroyed the key
Then, he lurked in the shadows, playing eye for an eye,
But like an Icarus bee, I flew too high!
So, I cried on the radio
I have low self-esteem!
I just cried ‘cause the car wouldn’t start
No, the car wouldn’t start for me!
I was feeling so unlike myself ‘cause his arms were traps
And that ceiling, it doesn’t hold for long
It’s a crashin’ down!
In fables, they come
-All the old and the young
And they dance in the street like fools
And you can’t trust a single damned word they say
‘Cause they’re all borderline insane
No crying, no screaming
This feeling was so unlike myself ‘cause his arms were traps
And that ceiling, it doesn’t hold for long
It’ll crash on down!
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7. |
Lift
03:49
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I flew to The Well, which was not there before
Full of dread, I revert to a wrecking ball,
But my wishes never made it down
It spat ‘em up
Maybe it just takes time?
It’s killing me to recognize the value
Makes me wonder,
Would I stay at home if I always got my way?
One day, I’ll look beyond that selflessness buried in me,
And Ima’ taste the manipulation
O’ Ima’ bring the end!
All the cars in my head just can’t drive the road I’ve seen
The disappointment in you’s the disappointment in me
I’ll cut ties
Though, I know we’ve all heard that before
Full of dread, I revert to a wrecking ball
My first thought is, “Should I tear it down?”
-The Big Well, hidden deep within the mind
It’s killing me to recognize the value of that structure
When I cast a wish, and it spits it in my face
One day, I’ll look beyond that selflessness buried in me,
And Ima’ taste the manipulation
O’ Ima’ bring the end!
All the cars in my head just can’t drive the road I’ve seen
The disappointment in you’s the disappointment in me
Take it from me
(‘Cause I regret when I wanted your help—never needed it)
Take everything
(And put it all in a cold, dark place, never let it see sunshine)
Take it all
(‘Cause I regret when I wanted your help—never needed it)
Away
(I’ll put this all in a cold dark place, never let it see sunshine)
One day, I’ll look beyond that selflessness buried in me,
And Ima’ taste the manipulation
O’ Ima’ bring the end!
All the cars in my head just can’t drive the road I’ve seen
The disappointment in you’s the disappointment in me
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8. |
The New Elevator
04:30
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Hmm… eben’ doah dem nebba hear a’ us
Dem orda’ us to wull di bus—mi fuss
Areddi itchin’ fi tings a gwaan
Di walk’ yah jus tuh ramp pan di blacktop
Huh—so, I pulled up in a station wagon
I got the swagger of a katydid—bzz!
I finna’ catch stars as they drop far
I’m too Mufasa to diss Scars
O’ mia di ongle one ahuu can fee’
Lakka mi hab ah gun fi ah han’
No one I’ve met has the will to stay
(They’re stuck at the bottom)
And what would I lose if I went back down?
(What’s the consequence?)
I fought my way here from the other side,
And it goes on and on and on and on and on
Watch di kids gather roun wen wi step outside…
It takes a second, maybe two or three
To go from the man next door
To the superhero out in the streets,
Saving ungrateful victims
I pick ‘em like flowers that tickle
O’ mia di ongle one ahuu can fee’
Lakka mi hab ah gun fi ah hand
Buh pree mi run lakka mon wid ah yulluh’ bac
Pree mi vroom, vroom, vroom akrass di highway
-Via jackrabbit
Eben doah mi habba’ kun’ criss gun fi ah han’
No one I’ve met has the will to stay
(They’re stuck at the bottom)
And what would I lose if I went back down?
(What’s the consequence?)
I fought my way here from the other side,
And it goes on and on and on and on and on
Hmm… eben’ doah dem nebba hear a’ us
Dem orda’ us to wull di bus—mi fuss
Areddi itchin’ fi tings a gwaan
Di walk’ yah jus tuh ramp pan di blacktop
No one I’ve met has the will to stay
(They’re stuck at the bottom)
And what would I lose if I went back down?
(What’s the consequence?)
I fought my way here from the other side,
And it goes on and on and on an on and on and on
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9. |
Flip
04:24
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Umm… It’s hard not to go with the grain
I impress myself when I dress myself
I’m easily so entertained
No goals in the trunk, but at least I’m conscious
Pompous? Nah, ‘cause I don’t want this
I’m just nauseous from this noxious insecurity that’s haunting
I’m a novice—record spotless
Would it be so bad if it just had a coffee stain or two?
I’d feel like someone else!
(‘Cause it grooves to the rhythm of a splash in a pond)
But at the same time, I’ been me now for so long,
I think it’s time to flip that cup…
(Spill it out, let it flow ‘til it goes and it goes)
I took a shot in the dark
My arrows are hanging over me,
And waiting for the connection is more than I can stand
I’m so peeved
It’s like you’re asleep
So, I reach for the dirt-cheap tricks
To beat this—defeat them
The cleats on my feet keep slipping
And I’m tripping while you’re sipping down that Haterade
Go back to catering
The team needs an ace, and I’m far from it…
No, my job’s to eat shit and turn stomachs
I don’t like to compete, but I’m gonna’
I’m a little salty, but I’m coming like a Shyamalan twist
That’s a miss amid the mist
I plead the fifth,
‘Cause I know it’s a sinking ship,
And I’m bound to whiff the hit
But at the same time, I have sucked now for so long;
I think it’s time to bottoms up!
(When it doubt, knock it down, make it bounce, let it out)
I took a shot in the dark
My arrows are hanging over me,
And waiting for the connection is more than I can stand,
But we’re all playing ‘til the end
We play until the end
My turn is coming!
No isolation
The arrows are falling—unbound for completion
No rest until I give my best
No rest until I’ve picked up all of the fragments that broke off and splintered,
All of the pieces that I never asked for,
All of the sorrow, be cut like steak to a knife
Never break, never be disappointed
No, I swear, we’ll drink their blood
Refuse to call it quits ‘cause we can’t lose forever
Something’s bound to crumble
They’re tired, and we’ve only just begun
Refuse to call it quits ‘cause we can’t lose forever
This is where we stand
Now, we’re all playing ‘til the end
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10. |
Turbines
06:59
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I’m a turbine for others’ business,
And I’ve found it’s just rudimentary nonsense
I am machine with a human face
Unseen, demented, and scorned
You believed in me anyway,
Though I removed my compass’ north
Now, I’m all out of alliances,
When before was a shoulder to shoulder row
Fix my mistakes—a greater line that is!
It’s held strong for a million, trillion years
-It seems, to me
It seems, to me, that this one height I cannot reach
I told myself that I wouldn’t lose track
Threw a wish in The Well, and it bounced back
It’s just not the way I was built
-Programmed for error—recovery stilted
Wilted like the whole thing jilted
And this well’s got me red-rover filthy
I am chill—I’m an ice pack!
I was that man in the back of the field, not looking
Oh my god, I was deep in a funk
I’d wait for days for the drop
I would pray that the sun went out
If the sun went out,
I’m thinking I wasn’t thinking
Oh my god, there’s salt in the wound again
Better swoon again
‘Cause I might never catch
-Doomed again
Nothing new again
But I’m cool with it
A rotating axis
When the hangman drops, will I scrape the clouds?
I doubt it
I just want my father to be proud
While I’m creating a good moment
His hands are tied behind his back
I’ve got no secrets left to tell
Keep living in that perfect world that you’ve created with your loneliness
Caught up in spilling over
With no objections to the change
‘Cause this one height I cannot reach
That’s what I told myself, and I guess I lost track
Made a fist, and I drowned in a flash flood
I got stuck in piles of silt
Took off my shoes, tread sand ‘cause I can’t pitch
Talk that talk,
But I’ll plug my ears
‘Cause I don’t really care
There’s a wall in between me and you
Is he safe? Is he safe?
Is it true…?
Yo, I’m the basic hero!
When you’ the basic hero,
You don’t face your fears,
You embrace ‘em—stand up!
You wanna’ be a man, up!
You wanna’ be a man, up!
Every miss just sets you back to zero
But I don’t pack my gear up…
I keep on coming
Because I just wanna be here for more!
‘Cause it seems, to me
It seems, to me
I kneel down, blow a kiss to the crowd
Nobodies gathered around,
All’ve come to witness my power
And that crowd, it doesn’t know it’s my crowd!
There’s barely any attention for the whole team that’s surrounding me
Caught up in spilling over
With no objections to the change,
But this one height I cannot reach
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11. |
The Big Pitch
05:49
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There is a spectre just in front of me
And in this moment, I have to compete
Watashi wa hosshi ni kachitai
I will be something, one day
You’ll reach a point where winning is not good enough
You’ll wanna’ destroy them,
But it’s unlike you—unlike you
Never put your passion before principle
Maybe I’m too desperate, but I came this far
Can I stop?
Ahuu a lavi’ now?
Ahuu a lavi’ now?
Mi a gi i’ all mi hab jus tuh keep ih togedda
Ahuu a lavi’ now?
Ahuu a lavi’ now?
Maybe wen mi dead, yuh a guh bi weh mi stan
But there’s that spectre just in front of me
And in this moment, I have to compete
Watashi wa hosshi ni kachitai
I will be something, one day
You’ll reach a point where losing’s just a better way
To learn about yourself
The whole world is watching you fail
Never put your pleasure before principle
Maybe I’m old-fashioned,
But there’s value in discipline…
Ahuu a lavi’ now?
Ahuu a lavi’ now?
Mi a gi all mi hab jus tuh keep ih togedda
Ahuu a lavi’ now?
Ahuu a lavi’ now?
Maybe wen mi dead, yuh a guh bi weh mi stan
But there’s that spectre just in front of me
And in this moment, I have to compete
Kore igai ga hoshikunai
Hitsuyōna no wa sore dakedesu
Kami igai dare mo watashi no tomenaidarou
Ahuu a lavi’ now?
Ahuu a lavi’ now?
Mi a gi all mi hab jus tuh keep ih togedda
Ahuu a lavi’ now?
Ahuu a lavi’ now?
Maybe wen mi dead, yuh a guh bi weh mi stan
Kore igai ga hoshikunai
Hitsuyōna no wa sore dakedesu
Kami igai dare mo watashi no tomenaidarou
Oretachi ishou ni dekimasu
Ganbattemo hitori de wa dekinai
Kore wa daremo ga matteita shunkandesu, shippai ikenai
I know the spectre just in front of me’s
The only reason I have to compete
Watashi wa hosshi ni kachitai
If just to prove you all wrong
Kore igai ga hoshikunai
Hitsuyōna no wa sore dakedesu
Kami igai dare mo watashi no tomenaidarou
Oretachi ishou ni dekimasu
Ganbattemo hitori de wa dekinai
Kore wa daremo ga matteita shunkandesu, shippai ikenai
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